Thursday, June 13, 2013

If I Could Write A Letter To Me

Linking up for the first time ever today with Holly and Jake. Let's hope I'm doing this right. Writing a letter to my 21 year old self. Even if it was just two years ago. But 2011 was a tough year for me.

Hey there hot momma. I want to just say I'm glad you didn't get the house you were hoping to buy. I know right now you feel a little disappointed and firmly believe the world is out to get you. You feel that nothing ever goes the way you want it. And sometimes you even wonder why other people that dont work as hard for their stuff always seem to get what they want. Just know that a couple of years down the road everything will smooth out. The hubbs will get a much better job and you will finally start seeing that youre able to make bigger improvements on your little fixer upper. Don't try to compete with anyone else. Just focus on your own path to success. Also, I want to bring up Baby #2. Although you feel like you may be ready, God works in mysterious ways. Get ready. Prepare yourself mentally and emotionally for what's to come in the next month or so. Things happen for a reason...maybe it's just not time yet. Please allow yourself plenty of time after this miscarriage to think things through before you decide you want to try again. Adryan should be your major concern for a while longer. I want to talk about Tio (uncle) Gizmo. I know you know he has been very sick these days and that he has been in and out of the hospital. You should have spent more time with him. His days are numbered and you need to be strong. His passing will be the first time you take anybody's death to heart. You have to learn to let things be and understand God's ways. As for now, hug him tight, cherish every moment that he calls you 'Beautiful' while he is still around. As for your health. I wish you would take action about your weight now and not wait till almost a year later to start making changes. I know that right now you are not even aware that you are in the top percentile of obesity. I know this with all my heart because even now when I look back I can't think of a time you were majorly concerned with getting into shape. You kind of just thought the weight would eventually 'magically disappear. Fortunately, in about a year, you will come to your senses and find out that theres no better way to shed weight than the old fashioned way. Sweat your ass off, eat healthy and don't give up. The saying 'Good things come to those who wait' is total BS. The saying people use now is 'Good things come to those who work their asses off.' I cant wait till you are introduced to health and well being and realize that you have to care for yourself no matter how old you are. I won't spoil it all, just know you are one hot MILF. I know you don't recognize the self esteem but I promise you'll get there. ;) P.S. Too late now, but I wish you would have never been introduced to the Housewives series or Pinterest cause you are hooked, girl! P.S.S Here's a before and after just so you get an idea of how far you have come. You rock my face off! See ya in the mirror, Me