Fat Me vs Skinny Me

This morning I woke up not wanting to go to the gym. I got up to turn off my alarm and thought of hundreds of reasons why I shouldn't go to the gym, "I didn't get enough sleep last night." "I'm tired." "One day of not going won't hurt." "I'm sore." ...you get the drift. And guess what I did! I put on my workout clothes, running shoes, and big girl panties, sucked it up and went anyway. Did 20 minutes of the treadmill, 30 on the stationary bike, and some strength exercises. When I was done I was so glad I had gone. I imagine there's gonna be days when Fat Me is gonna tell me that working out is too hard or I'm too busy watching tv to get up and run. But the skinny bitch in me has a louder voice. And she is telling me to stop making excuses for myself. I like Skinny Me. She has shown me that consistency is key and that one day, this new lifestyle is going to consume me and Fat Me will no longer exist.

With hard work comes results.

So I hit the gym again this morning at 4:15 AM. I'm wanting to do different workouts every day so I don't get bored doing just one routine over and over. Today I mastered the elliptical for about 40 minutes burning around 400 calories! Afterwards I did some weights and inclined crunches. Man it feels so good to accomplish even the smallest things at the gym. Cause everything I do, I know its taking me a step closer to my goal. Last night I had a chocolate chip cookie, and not just ANY chocolate chip cookie. A McAlister's Deli coookie. Those are some monster sized cookies with about 300 cals!! I know! Shoot me! I felt so guilty afterwards that I decided to go for a walk/run. I guess that's the good thing: I may cheat, but I find a way to get my ass in gear 2 minutes later when I decide it was a bad idea.
In other news: Our fridge completely gave up on us this week so we are waiting for payday (Friday) to go get a new one. Seems like when its not one thing its another. We were supposed to put in some plumbing for a restroom  we are building but that's just gonna have to wait till next payday. Just another day in paradise.
Well girls, that's it for now. Thanks for reading.

Oh, here's a pic I took of myself yesterday, and I'm finally starting to see some results. Yay!

Here's hoping.

So, for a few days I had considered taking off to the gym at 4am every morning before the hubbs left for work. I thought it was the perfect time, allowing me to get my hour of fitness while everyone slept. And by the time I got back, the hubbs would barely be getting up to get ready for work. So today was my first day of putting it to the test and I feel awesome. I'm so happy with myself for not allowing any obstacle hinder me from doing my workouts. You see, when there's determination and motivation there really is no excuse for getting up off your ass and doing something good for yourself. I used to cry about my clothes fitting too tight or looking like a heffer, but now I don't cry about it. I suck it up and do what I need to do. This whole weight loss journey that I put myself on, is a journey I don't ever want to leave behind. I want this to become a way of living for me. Diet and exercise: I want them to be like breathing, unconscious and second nature. I'm so happy to be seeing results in my clothes, getting compliments, and feeling good after a good sweat. Here's hoping I never go back to the old me... EVER.

Weekend Warrior!

I'm pleased to say that even though I cheated on some meals this weekend, I didn't go over my calorie goal of 1300 cals a day! Woop Woop! Weekends are tough cause its when the hubby and I go out to eat and what not. The temptation is all around. I had to keep reminding myself that I had a calorie goal to keep. For example, yesterday we went to a buffalo wings place called Wing Stop. I usually would have the 10 piece combo with fries and a soft drink. Not this time honey! I had the 6 wing combo with a water and only had some fries. And the biggest challenge of all: I didn't have any of their made-from-scratch ranch dip! I love me some dip with my wings, but when I went to look it up on My Fitness Pal before I started to stuff my face, that little sucker has like threehundred Plus calories!! Eff that shizz! So I put on my big girl panties and ate my wings without the dip. Yup. And that was me throught the whole weekend. A changed woman, a Weekend Warrior! *applies black strips under eyes*. So today its back to the routine of eating healthy and exercising. I also gotta keep in mind that I have 10 bucks on the line. Over all I don't think I gained any weight. Quite honestly, if I break even on that scale, I'll be a-ok. Cause staying on track is a bitch, and I'm starting to get into the groove of things. Have an awesome Monday girls!
P.s: here's some pics of the weekend.
Enjoy my awesomeness.

Biggest Loser

So after our workout last night, my sister in law and I decided we wanted a nice little competition between us. So we will weigh in every 2 weeks and whoever has lost the most weight in that time wins $10 from the other! It's not much, but the simple fact that it's a competition, makes you wanna be the winner every time!! So bring it on Mavel!
On another note, its the weekend and I'm scared straight because weekends are my weekness. This is where I get off track with my eating and excercise. I'm hoping I can stay focused and My Fitness Pal will actually be a real pal, and help me not give in to the temptation while eating out. Remember Claudia, moderation is key!! Everyone have a kick ass weekend. Blog ya later bitches!!!

Men: Can't live with them, can't live without them.

Like I've mentioned before, I am a full time stay at home mom to a toddler. I don't know why people have the perception that we sit on our ass all day without any stress. This is absolutely not true. I bust my ass every single day from Sun up to Sun down. Cooking, cleaning, laundry, errands, finding time for myself doesn't exist, except for when Adryan takes a nap, that is IF he decides to nap that day. And my free time consists of doing chores I'm not able to do while he is awake. So when I ask my husband to please take out the trash when he comes home, or simply ask him to get here before sundown so I can go for a run, doesn't seem all that impossible for him to do. Yet, he "forgets" to take out the garbage or whatever small task I have asked him to do. I used to feel sorry for him cause he works so much, but I'm getting to the point where I think to myself, "Hell, I "work" all day too and there's no excuse for me to get my shit done." Don't get me wrong, I adore my husband. He is a handyman around the house and a hard worker at that. But sometimes I feel like I don't get enough credit for what I do. Anyone else have the same problem? How do you and your partner deal with this type of scenario?
Weight update: 215! 15 lbs down the drain.

Can't lie to myself.

Party dress dilemma solved! I found the cutest dresses in the last place I thought I would find them! Target. They're really cute, don't ride up my ass, and actually show off my body in a good way! And the best news.... Goodbye size 16 for good! Lord please don't ever let me hit that nasty number ever again. Now, to work myself down into a 6. That's my goal. Sigh.
Anywho, went on a walk last night and according to this new app I downloaded onto my phone, Fitness Pal, I burned 320 cals approximately. Also, the app is helping me count my calories. I used to not like calorie counters cause I would forget to put in what I ate. Or if I was ashamed of something I snacked on (like a Twinkie) I wouldn't write it in. But now I've realized that by doing that I was only lying to myself. As the saying goes, "You wear in public what you eat in private." So I'm being completely honest with the calculator this time. For my own good.

Everything in moderation

This weekend I was out of control with my eating and lack of excercise. I wouldn't be surprised if I have gained all 13 of those lbs I have worked so hard to lose. I would be effing pissed, but not surprised. But today I am back on my health kick! Had apples and peanut butter for breakfast, enchiladas for lunch (the low fat version), just had organic kettle cooked popcorn as my afternoon snack, and for dinner I will have me a small portion of roasted chicken with mashed potatoes and stuffing. Yea I know what you're thinking..  its all fattening. But you can never go wrong with moderation. As long as you are excercising and counting cals... You should be okay. I just don't want to be stuck for the rest of my life not being able to enjoy certain foods. So I'm hoping to lose weight just by cutting down on my calorie intake and of course, work out.
We'll see how that works.

Why I wanna lose weight.

In a world filled with stereotypes and judging, now more than ever we are forced to face the harsh reality that if you are not thin, you are not "in". This doesnt apply to every single person on the planet, but for the most part, it's true. I remember back when I was thin I would get compliments on anything I would wear, I would be able to fit into anything I tried on at a clothing store, I felt more confident about myself because I knew people would check me out as I passed by. These days not so much. With all the weight I have gained, my self esteem level is down to half of what it used to be. There's days every now and then I feel pretty, or maybe once in a blue moon I might feel sexy. Most of the time though, I feel sad and guilty about the way I've let myself get to this point.
So here's a few reasons why I want to get into shape:
-I want to be in perfect health to play and run around with my son without getting tired.
-I want to feel that my husband is attracted to me (REALLY attracted)
-I want to fit into clothes at Abercrombie (and look damn good in it)
-I want to wear a bathing suit with no cover ups
-I don't want to feel my thighs rubbing together when I walk.
-I want to be able to run nonstop through an entire workout.
-I want to wear skinny jeans without looking like a cone.
-I want to go dancing with my husband and not get tired during the middle of the second song.
-I want my muffin top to dissapear.
-I want to be a hot mom.
-I want to make myself proud!
And the list could go on forever. What are some of the reasons you want to lose weight?
Akso, I weighed myself at my sister in law's house a couple of days ago and guess what... 217!!!! That means 13 lbs down!!!!! Now I have to confess, I have been cheating on myself this weekend. Yesterday I ate pizza at Mr Gattis and today I made some irresistible green beef enchiladas that I couldn't turn down. Everything in moderation, but still fattening. So that means I need to get my ass in gear like, now!! Oh, I bought some new shoes yesterday to hit the pavement in! Can't wait to break them in!!
Have an awesome rest of the weekend!!

Oh My Word...

      Yay! I just noticed I have a follower!!! Yay tlr_03!! Thanks for following my amateur little blog. At least I know SOMEONE cares enough to subscribe. I promise I'll try to keep it interesting for ya.
      Ive had a pretty normal week so far except for the fact that I dont have a scale! Its effingkilling me!Icant weigh in. But Ive been drinking tons of water and eating less calories so I hope that when I do weigh myself I see a diference. If I dont, Im just going back to eating junk food, drinking Coke, and invest in a HoverRound chair. Dieting is only fun if you're seeing results.
     In other news...I have to say, Im pretty much a loner when it comes to friends. Im usually preocupied with my everyday duty of bing SupermomSuperwife, that I forget I have a social life. So I have found a way to catch up with friends and entertain my kid all at once. All I have to do is call up the friends that have kids the same age as my kid, take the rascals to a movie or to the park, and while theyre poking each othes eyes out, me and the girlfriends gossip about our lives (and about a strangers outfit or hairdo). Its a geat oportunity to catch up on the latest highlights in your life and its always good to know you are not the only one going through a certian situation. For example, I have a friend who also has a 2 year old and we decided to take the boys swimming at a local community pool. While they had fun playing in the water, we discussed our everyday routines and I was also pleasantly surprised that she is currenly going through a weight loss journey as well. It was great to be able to exchange ideas about squeezing in healthy eating and excercise into our days. Before we hit the pool, she invited us over for lunch...and let me tell you... she made the best dressing I have ever tasted! It was baby spinach, chopped ham, provolone cheese, tomato, and almonds. Now, Im not a big fan of spinach, but with that awesome dressing, I couldnt even tell if it was spinach, lettuce or grass. Besides, she told me that spinach leaves are good for the digestive system. You shit like a just fed newborn baby. And that, ladies and germs, is music to my ears cause Im not very regular when it comes to that so I might have to add spinach to my salads more often.
Anyways folks... heres some picture from yesterday at the pool! Have a great Wednesday!

 Oh yea! I forgot to mention my siter-in-law came with us! This is my adorabl niece!

About Me

I've had a couple of girlfriends tell me they have started to read or have read my blog. So for the most part I know my readers know me personally, but for those of you who dont know me, here are some random facts about my life.

-Im 22. My birthday is December 11.
-Im 5'8. Being tall sucks. I can never wear any cute hooker heels cause I look like a monster and I may get my hair caught in the ceiling fan. Also, my hubby is like an inch taller than me so its not really a great idea to wear stillettos.
-I live in the wonderful little big town of Midland, TX. Everyone knows everyone and its really not that wonderful.
-I have a two year old son whom I adore!!
-Im a stay at home mom. The hubby works and I spend his money...thats my job.
-I got married at the ripe old age of 17, and do not regret it...at all...ish...
-So to answer the question in your head... Yes I graduated high school AND I went to technical school and got my Dental Assisting License. So boo ya!
-I live in the country, in Texas, so yes that means I drive a pick up, live on an acre of land, and have horses. Thats how we do it here in Texas. Im just missing my tractor and Im all set.
-I hate cats. They shed too much fur and are sneaky little fuckers.
-My favorite snack (since I can remember is...Hot Cheetos...I know... sue me. But hey Im down to a bag a week or every two weeks. Used to be every day! No lie! But Ive grown since then. A little bit, cause I still cant seem to give them up completely. Working on it though...
-Favorite place to eat is Olive Garden! I could eat there every day if my broke ass could afford it!
-Favorite acoholic beverage is Smirnoffs. I keep it real. I dont drink very much but when I do I like to get shitfaced.
-I like singing karaoke...especially when Im tipsy. And I dont want to toot my own horn, but im pretty fuckin' fabulous at it. *Dusts off shoulder*

Ummm, thats pretty much my life in a nutshell. Anyone that wants to know more just ask. Im an open book.

This is a family pic we took in May. This was right before I decided to turn my life around for the better and lose weight. Im too young to not look fabulous and feel great about myself.

Motivated

When you find yourself in a struggling journey of any kind...in my case its loosing weight... You need to surround yourself with positive people who will lift you up and give you positive energy. But its also good to have negative people in your life because the feeling of proving someone wrong is golden! I find that the more people think you can't do it, the more you want to succeed. Not just for yourself, but to have that " I told you so!" or "Ha, in your face mothafucka!" feeling! There's nothing better than that. The world is filled with silent competitors that are just waiting for you to fail. Use them at your benefit, and when you say no to that second serving or to that dessert, think of it as a way of mentally kicking the ass of all those who want to see you fail.
Sometimes you may get discouraged and feel like quitting and giving in to the temptations but always remember what made you start in the first place. For me, its my health. I want to be around for a long time and I don't want my weight to be the cause of any medical problems. This whole thing is a journey. If you cheat on your diet, don't give up. Nobody is perfect and we're gonna make mistakes along the way. Just dust yourself off and keep going. What matters is that you are trying. Just don't ever believe that you can't do it because you can! Think of all the people that will be proud of you after the hardest part is over...and think of the people that will be green with envy. Personally, those are the ones I like to impress. Have a great start to your week!

Here's a picture update...

Screw Weigh-In Wednesdays

Okay, weighing in once a week can kiss my ass. Im done obsessing over the number on the scale and my kid broke my scale...more the latter. Yep, that means that as soon as I can afford another scale I will continue weighing myself religiously after every meal. What? The scale is one of my motivators and whips me into shape. I don't care what anybody thinks but I'm a slave for the scale. I may not be posting the weight regularly every single week but ill be giving updates for those of you who want to obsess with me.
Speaking of obsessions, another way I get motivated is by reading Mama Laughlin's Blog
Mamalaughlin.com
She is funny and honest about her weight loss journey and she is a big reason why I have become so dedicated and determined to lose weight and look good! And guess what! Not only do I effing love her blog, I won a giveaway just for following her and posting a couple o comments!
Proof:
http://instagr.am/p/OJqi-Bx6XD/
Yeah she is awesome (and so is her random number generator)! That is it for today folks. Sorry about not being consistent with the blog, but sometimes I have nothing interesting to say. That's that.
Here's a progress pic...


omg! you can see my collarbone again!

Moment of Truth

So I weighed myself. And to my surprise.. 222.3! And Im happy to report,since Sunday, Ive exchanged all of my carbonated and caffiened drinks for WATER! Go me!!! With just that little change, my body feels graet and actually craves the water! Unfortunately, not everything is honkey-dorey in my nick of the woods cause I have stopped going to the gym. Not because I just dont want to go, but because of two reasons: the main one: my hubbys pick up is not starting (its an '89 Ford POS)
so he is taking mine to work which means I have no car :( and the second reason: my 2 year old all of a sudden throws a fit when its time for "daycare". I dont want to think anything negative about the girls who watch him at the gym, but he used to be so good and looked forward to going. I cant seem to wonder if they mistreated him or he got picked on by another little one. Whatever the case, my fat ass isnt able to get her workout on at the gym.
Like I mentioned in another post, I do some light workouts here at home but its not as intense as a full dedicated hour at the gym. Im thinking Im just gonna take up running/walking as soon as the hubby gets home from work. That way he can watch Adryan and I can get at least a mile in.
Changing the subject, I have very good news! Adryan is finally potty trained! Woo Hoo! No more stinky and expensice diapers! Im a little ashamed it took me this long to get around to it but im much happier that its finally over!
Here's a pic of Adryan proudly showing his "big boy undies"!

 And, I cut my hair on Friday. I was trying to go for that "long bob" look. Long in the front, short in the back. Im still getting used to it, but I like it.