Thursday, March 21, 2013

Changes That Come With Losing Weight

About 45 lb loss
<p>&lt;p&gt;I took a little trip down Memory Lane. I thought about the changes that have come with my weightloss, (besides my apperance). &lt;br&gt;<br>
Starting off with a topic that usually is more taboo than anything: Sex. At my heavier weight, I remember having little or no sex drive at all. It just felt awkward and I was so self concious about the situation. Sex wasn't fun for me. It just reminded me of how fat I was. The more I could talk my husband out of doing it, the better. Even when I &lt;i&gt;was&lt;/i&gt; in the mood, I never felt like I had enough sex appeal or confidence to approach him about it. Almost a year into my weight loss journey and I am proud to say that the sex is awesome! Of course I'm still a little self concious about my midsection but I am in a much better place than I have been for the past 2-3 years. I have gained so much confidence in myself that doing the deed has become less of an problem and more of an enjoyable intimate moment with my husband. I have to give props to him because he never made me feel uncomfortable about having sex. Even at my heaviest he never once had anything negative to say- even though he may have been thinking it. But I know for a fact that he likes the new me (in progress) better because he has told me that he sees that I'm more comfortable with myself. And I am. &lt;br&gt;<br>

What I typically wear now on a date or a day out.
What I used to wear out when I was concious about my weight. Just a top and jeans.
Oh and I tried hiding my midsection behind people.

Another big change that has just recently started to take place is my love for clothes. I used to hide my fat under jeans and tees. I would hardly ever go shopping because I was afraid of having to try on a bigger size of clothes. I lived in the same outfits and of course flat shoes cause what's worse than a fat girl trying to be fashionable? A fat girl who already feels awkward with her weight and height and add some wedges or heels to the mix. Never. At least that's how I felt about myself. I remember going out dancing with my husband and seeing all these pretty girls with cute dresses and heels. And here I was wearing jeans, a 'dressy' top and flats. I was already fatter than my husband- I didn't want to be taller too. Lately, I've been shopping for clothes a lot more and my love for heels keeps growing. I am no longer embarrassed about my height. I wear my heels proudly even though I may be a couple inches taller than my hubbs with them on. Cause I know I look damn good! Dresses used to be a big no-no. Now they are a must for a night on the town. <br>
Pictures! I have always had a love for taking pictures. I just love the camera. But back when I was bigger I remember having to take like 5 or 6 takes of the same thing cause 'My face looks too fat!' Or 'Let me suck it in!' And I would hide behind people to cover my tummy area. Now I love taking selfies in the mirror, and uploading them to Instagram (as some of yall know). Where there's a photo op, there's me!<br>
All of this goes hand in hand with my confidence. I used to walk with a slump, now I walk tall and proud. I'm more outgoing than I was before and I'm not as hesitant about speaking my mind. I am loving all these changes that I keep discovering in myself and hope to never go back to my old ways. <br>
Losing weight not only helps your appearance, it allows your real personality to shine through and show the real you!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

New Workout Schedule

Man o man ot has been a while since I've updated you guys on anything here on my blog. If you follow my indtsgram, you're pretty much updated on my current progress. For those of you that don't, here's a breif look at what my days consist of thus far.
Mondays, Tuesdays and Fridays are the same.  Breakfast, Gym at 9 am (still doing about 45 minutes of cardio-more running- and about 20 to 30 mins of weights.), post workout snack, lunch, snack, dinner. Lots of water in between.
On Wednesdays and Thursdays I watch my niece so I can't hit the gym during the day cause the daycare center doesn't allow me to take her with me. So I wake up extra early (3:50 am) and go get my workout in for the day early. Soon as I get home, the hubbs takes off for work, I hop in the shower, get back in bed cause its still early as fuck and wake up again around 9 to get my day started.
Im still battling against a plateau that has been here since the holidays. No lie, I have been stuck in the 180s since friggin Christmas. For a while I surpassed the 180s and got into the high 170s but then we went to a quinceanera in Mexico and shit hit the fan. We were down there for 4 days and that was enough to get me back into the 180s.
Also, I recently (about 10 days ago) I started taking a meal replacement shake usually for dinner (occasionally for breakfast) from Herbalife. I gotta say, the shakes are good and they do satisfy your hunger. I've only tried the Cookies and Cream and the Dutch Chocolate flavors and they are both really good. I hope they help het me back to the 170s.
When I initially started my journey I had a goal weight in mind...180. Now that I'm at the weight, I don't want to stay here. I know I can go so much farther and accomplish more milestones than the ones I've already accomplished. I'm almost at my 50 lb loss and I couldn't be happier about where I am and what I've achieved but I can't stop now. I know Im capable of so much more. This journey has taught me so much about mysrlf, about life, about the ability to transform myself into anything I want. I just have to set myself up for success, believe in myself, be aggressive and shoot down my goals. Little by little I know I can. If I've come this far in 10.5 months, I can only imagine how much more I can accomplish this time next year. Life has been good to me and I'm ready to show the world that chubby girl is no longer, and in her place is a strong, confident woman that can do anything she sets her mind to. Weightloss is not only physical. It's a mind game. If you think you can't, you can't. But if you get up every day telling yourself you can do it, and give it all you have, you will. It's that simple. Train your brain before you start training your body.